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« Thread Started on Feb 25, 2006, 5:50pm »

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23rd Feb 2017

I haven't touched this book since my last entry, about 2 years ago. But as I flick through the blank pages that are still left to fill, I realise that I am not much older than I was then. There is still so much of my life yet to experience. And i'm going to record it, so I can hold the memories, like I used to. Memories are mostly painful, but that's okay. They'll keep me strong, knowing that i've learnt from my mistakes. So I won't rip out the pages that hold his name, and burn them, however much I want to. However much I regret, and want to leave it behind, I won't. I'll carry it with me, to remind myself that's impossible to be perfect. I made the bigegst mistake possible - giving up love, passion, and the person who could hold me and would let me fall asleep in his arms.
But now i'll write about everyone I meet, so i'll remember everything. No, I won't forget.

Of course, my time here would have to start badly. I was surprised. Yeah, not good at all. It was one ofsoe lizard things, a chameleon, that's it. Jumped on my lap. It's owner came to claim it and that was the surprise. He crept up on me. It ended up with me nearly stabbng him, but I managed to stop. Never been particularly good at greeting new people.
His name's Charles apparently, and i guess he's okay. Not that i'm planning on making any friends here. Caring for someone else makes you weak, and here we can't afford to be weak. There's a girl too, Sonra, my room-mate. She's alright too, but like I said; no friends. Respect, civility, trust yes, but caring - no.

There's another guy I met as well, in the South. Robby. Had a drink with him in a bar. Not like I used to, chucking them down. That's past me now. No, it was just a couple of bacardis. But same rules apply. It hurts anyway, opens up old wounds. And if i'm going to fight, I need to be strong, and certain of what i'm doing. Death isn't an option here, it's compulsory.

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« Reply #1 on Mar 2, 2006, 12:01pm »

2nd March 2017

He's getting to me again, like he used to do, every second I was away from him. It's like he's following me. Maybe he's dead, and haunting me now. Maybe the Aalah killed him, like they killed everyone else. But I wish he'd stop, I wish he'd go away. Well, no I don't. I don't know what I wish, I can't think.

I finally went to see the north today. It's dead, but there's no bodies. Just ashes, rubble, dust. I found a letter, and that's what started it. And even though it's gone, he's still here. I can feel him tap me on the shoulder, but when I look around he's gone. Hear him call my name, but I can't see where he is. I can feel him holding me, but at the same time I can't

So i'm writing this to him. Leave me alone Ash. Let me live.

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